A Brief Hiatus

Yeah, you see what I did just there? That's called a mini-break. You know, grief and all that.

Anywho, back now. Thought I'd hop on to mention my latest ponderings.

Like for instance I'm starting to believe we have a ghost... that or my bedroom toys are being possessed. It's weird. I was awoken this morning at 1 am, an hour after falling asleep from my handy dandy hand time. My daughter was stirring so of course that got me up.

After waiting and listening to her mumblings I was able to hear a faint whirrrrrr coming from some undisclosed location. A quick grope under the bed yielded nothing. Turning on the bedside light and leaning over to look didn't help either.

Finally I got up, got my daughter some water, and turned on the full light. I was looking all over that drned floor. I checked every device. Nothing. None of them were on and there was no more noise. I went back to sleep.

Fast forward to 15 minutes ago. I'm heading into my room to grab something and there it is- that same whirring again. Of course I check and see nothing. I shrug and head out of the room. The moment I hit the doorway it stops. Not another peep.

This is starting to be a little bit creepy. Do I have some kind of pervy poltergeist?

Only time will tell.

Also, I ran into an old kind-of-friend yesterday. I guess he's still with his old SO, the one I had known. Have you recently had someone tell you how good you look? I haven't... unless you count my mother. The last person to even notice my appearance like that (that I noticed anyway) was my ex.

So, I run into this old friend who now has a son and his girlfriend. He says I look hot. I'm flattered of course. He goes on to mention it again a few more times in the conversation.

Needless to say this made my day. I would never ever think of pursuing anything with this man/father but still, it's nice to have some appreciation- especially since I wasn't even trying. Yep, that's right. No makeup, no jewelry, not even 5 min in front of the mirror doing my hair.

I'm lazy like that.

Anyways, I'm thinking it might not have been that I looked that amazing. It might have been that it was the first time he saw me in that light. Back when he knew me I had a mini Buddha growing in my belly.

So, yeah, not sure why I just told that story. Didn't really want to toot my own horn or anything. It just made me happy. In some small way karma was paying me back. I might not have mentioned but we ran into each other while I was donating a bunch of clothing, even the Gymboree I was planning to sell. It came to me the other day that life is too short. Any day our loved ones might leave us. When I think of that Gymboree doesn't seem like such a large price to pay knowing that my life and possessions are being spent in a meaningful way.

I guess the universe approves of my new-found outlook. The compliment was just what I needed.

^_^